community...relationship. both are centered around the same thing of one broken human interacting with another broken human. different people need it to differing degrees.
for me, i know that i need it to a great degree. in fact, it is the hardest part of my current situation for me. not the lack of a full time job or a place to live. it is not having those to be in relationship with and share our lives.
what is community for you? is it important to you? do you feel like you need it or are you quite satisfied? let me know what you are thinking.
3.29.2010
3.22.2010
life to the tune of james taylor.
There's a song that they sing when they take to the highway
A song that they sing when they take to the sea
A song that they sing of their home in the sky
Maybe you can believe it if it helps you to sleep
But singing works just fine for me
A song that they sing when they take to the sea
A song that they sing of their home in the sky
Maybe you can believe it if it helps you to sleep
But singing works just fine for me
do you have a song? is your life a song? i think that mine is. if so, i hope that i take it to the highway and the sea. where am i in my song? am i singing it or is someone else writing it for me? i hope that i am writing it.
right now it feels like it is written in the minor key. plodding and dark and mysterious. will it suddenly brighten up like the chorale in beethoven's 9th? i guess my song has multiple movements. there are so many ways to think about this.
...i wonder in what movement my song becomes a duet...
3.13.2010
rain
well, this looks like the third post in a week. i better be careful or this might become a pattern.
we got some rain yesterday and we are getting a lot today. sometimes it is coming down hard, other times it is just drizzling. right now it is pouring. as i look out the windows of the cafe, i am thrust into thought. i like the rain. i didn't always. i never minded the rain, but it wasn't until living in germany and encountering day upon day of rain that i developed a fondness for it. i like it because it calms things. it slows things down. it quiets. it washes and cleans. it floods and takes away. it now reminds me of germany.
to have a cup of coffee, a glass of wine and be in front of a fire reading a book and listening to jazz. ah, that is refreshing. soul soothing. sometimes i wish it would rain in my heart and soul. to wash away the dirt and make it calm and quiet. to pull me out of myself and wash me towards love and grace.
PS. as i sit here and write this i wish that you would walk through that door. you, a dear friend that i long to talk to, but you live elsewhere. colorado, wisconsin, texas, germany, minnesota, ireland, and spread many other places. may god bless all of you.
we got some rain yesterday and we are getting a lot today. sometimes it is coming down hard, other times it is just drizzling. right now it is pouring. as i look out the windows of the cafe, i am thrust into thought. i like the rain. i didn't always. i never minded the rain, but it wasn't until living in germany and encountering day upon day of rain that i developed a fondness for it. i like it because it calms things. it slows things down. it quiets. it washes and cleans. it floods and takes away. it now reminds me of germany.
to have a cup of coffee, a glass of wine and be in front of a fire reading a book and listening to jazz. ah, that is refreshing. soul soothing. sometimes i wish it would rain in my heart and soul. to wash away the dirt and make it calm and quiet. to pull me out of myself and wash me towards love and grace.
PS. as i sit here and write this i wish that you would walk through that door. you, a dear friend that i long to talk to, but you live elsewhere. colorado, wisconsin, texas, germany, minnesota, ireland, and spread many other places. may god bless all of you.
3.12.2010
stream
not really sure what to write about which means i probably shouldn't but maybe i will try this stream of consciousness style. so here goes...
have you ever noticed that life keeps going? we wish it would slow down in those amazing and special times. we wish it would skip or speed up in the hard and painful times. time doesn't seem to listen, it just goes. it doesn't try to be hurtful or to rush our lives. it is steady, reliable and always...on-time.
so how do we react. should we relish the pain or suckiness? should we breeze through that amazing little glimpse of beauty? those are the times i would love time to stop and just relax. the beauty. whether it is the walk outside amongst the hills or the cup of coffee with that amazing person across the table.
they say that there is beauty in pain, but i am not sure that we can see that in the middle of the trial. it seems that the beauty shows itself when we look back on the pain and uncover the layers of dirt and tears. the beauty is there, but much harder to find. usually more beautiful that the good times, but still hard.
our lives just keep going. the falls and rises and moves of the painter. i just hope that a bright colour is going to start soon.
have you ever noticed that life keeps going? we wish it would slow down in those amazing and special times. we wish it would skip or speed up in the hard and painful times. time doesn't seem to listen, it just goes. it doesn't try to be hurtful or to rush our lives. it is steady, reliable and always...on-time.
so how do we react. should we relish the pain or suckiness? should we breeze through that amazing little glimpse of beauty? those are the times i would love time to stop and just relax. the beauty. whether it is the walk outside amongst the hills or the cup of coffee with that amazing person across the table.
they say that there is beauty in pain, but i am not sure that we can see that in the middle of the trial. it seems that the beauty shows itself when we look back on the pain and uncover the layers of dirt and tears. the beauty is there, but much harder to find. usually more beautiful that the good times, but still hard.
our lives just keep going. the falls and rises and moves of the painter. i just hope that a bright colour is going to start soon.
3.06.2010
the movement of life
though weighed down in breath, is lightened by love.
life can be described by many things. it can be a journey, it can be a symphony. it can be a struggle, or a joy. many of these are just moments in life. or maybe life is just a movement of a symphony that is so much bigger than us.
this movement goes up and down. it grows and settles, it hurries and slows. one thing that slows it is breath. the daily routine of life. it is steady and doesn't alter, we go through the same things every day. It is part of the rhythm of life and it can weigh us down. we can easily get bogged down with the little routines and lose sight of the larger movement.
what can pulls us out of this daily dirge? love. it can lighten our day and make us realize that there are things much bigger than us and our days going on. it guides us toward the big picture and pulls us out of our daily grind and into thinking about how we can add to the beautiful movement that is life.
so what can you do to add to the beautiful movement of life?
life can be described by many things. it can be a journey, it can be a symphony. it can be a struggle, or a joy. many of these are just moments in life. or maybe life is just a movement of a symphony that is so much bigger than us.
this movement goes up and down. it grows and settles, it hurries and slows. one thing that slows it is breath. the daily routine of life. it is steady and doesn't alter, we go through the same things every day. It is part of the rhythm of life and it can weigh us down. we can easily get bogged down with the little routines and lose sight of the larger movement.
what can pulls us out of this daily dirge? love. it can lighten our day and make us realize that there are things much bigger than us and our days going on. it guides us toward the big picture and pulls us out of our daily grind and into thinking about how we can add to the beautiful movement that is life.
so what can you do to add to the beautiful movement of life?
2.24.2010
cynicism
Conan O'Brien, on the last night of his show, before NBC kicked him out made this quote.
"All I ask of you, especially young people...is one thing. Please don't be cynical. I hate cynicism; it's my least favorite quality and it doesn't lead anywhere. Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you work really hard and you're kind, amazing things will happen. I'm telling you, amazing things will happen."
I have been thinking a lot about this. Why? Primarily because in many ways, i am a cynic. I don't like to label myself that way, but it is true. I am. I tend to look through cynical eyes. Not really at the world that I directly interact with, but the larger world out there. So while I am not cynical towards the people that i know, I can be very cynical towards government and media and many of those larger groups.
And on top of that, for the most part, I agree with Conan. I think that he is right. Cynicism does not lead anywhere. It only traps us in a spiral of dis-enjoyment. In the worse case, it just leads to apathy. Now while I am no where near apathetic, I do see that in myself every once in a while.
So how do I change? What steps can I take towards being less cynical? I am not sure, but I am sure that acknowledging it is a good step into the process. So we shall see where it goes.
"All I ask of you, especially young people...is one thing. Please don't be cynical. I hate cynicism; it's my least favorite quality and it doesn't lead anywhere. Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you work really hard and you're kind, amazing things will happen. I'm telling you, amazing things will happen."
I have been thinking a lot about this. Why? Primarily because in many ways, i am a cynic. I don't like to label myself that way, but it is true. I am. I tend to look through cynical eyes. Not really at the world that I directly interact with, but the larger world out there. So while I am not cynical towards the people that i know, I can be very cynical towards government and media and many of those larger groups.
And on top of that, for the most part, I agree with Conan. I think that he is right. Cynicism does not lead anywhere. It only traps us in a spiral of dis-enjoyment. In the worse case, it just leads to apathy. Now while I am no where near apathetic, I do see that in myself every once in a while.
So how do I change? What steps can I take towards being less cynical? I am not sure, but I am sure that acknowledging it is a good step into the process. So we shall see where it goes.
2.15.2010
walking on sunshine
today is one of those days where i am reminded of my relationary status or shall we say, lack of relationary status. it is something that i don't usually dwell on but at the same time don't enjoy. i am in my thirties and have walked through a good portion of my adult life alone.
it is harder than i wish it was, but at the same time i have done things that i am pretty sure i would not have done if i was married. i always thought that i would be married pretty close to after college, but that has not happened.
so when will i 'walk on sunshine'? will it ever happen? i don't know, maybe it will, maybe it won't. i do know that i have a great desire for it to happen. but that doesn't really count or matter in the games of love. it seems that this is one area of life that you can't make things happen. you can help yourself, but many other factors are there too.
i will continue to walk. hopefully in a direction and in a somewhat forward direction. and soon i hope to walk with another through this life.
it is harder than i wish it was, but at the same time i have done things that i am pretty sure i would not have done if i was married. i always thought that i would be married pretty close to after college, but that has not happened.
so when will i 'walk on sunshine'? will it ever happen? i don't know, maybe it will, maybe it won't. i do know that i have a great desire for it to happen. but that doesn't really count or matter in the games of love. it seems that this is one area of life that you can't make things happen. you can help yourself, but many other factors are there too.
i will continue to walk. hopefully in a direction and in a somewhat forward direction. and soon i hope to walk with another through this life.
2.04.2010
there's no other place
that i'd rather be, than safe in the arms, the arms of my saviour.
so what do you think about that? in the good times we would all say yes. in the bad times? is that really where we think it is best or is that just our sunday school heads talking? i know that i am not sure that is where i want to be right now. there seems to be a lot of frustration there. now i know that he can take it, but i am not sure that i want to be there or can take that dialog. that doesn't feel like a very relxaing place to be right now.
but...
am i there anyway? did i make a decision a while ago to always be there? maybe he doesn't want me to be anywhere else. so whether or not i at any moment feel like i want to be there, he is so glad that i am there. there just seem to be two points of view to look at this from. either way, i know that it makes my head spin.
so what do you think about that? in the good times we would all say yes. in the bad times? is that really where we think it is best or is that just our sunday school heads talking? i know that i am not sure that is where i want to be right now. there seems to be a lot of frustration there. now i know that he can take it, but i am not sure that i want to be there or can take that dialog. that doesn't feel like a very relxaing place to be right now.
but...
am i there anyway? did i make a decision a while ago to always be there? maybe he doesn't want me to be anywhere else. so whether or not i at any moment feel like i want to be there, he is so glad that i am there. there just seem to be two points of view to look at this from. either way, i know that it makes my head spin.
1.24.2010
so it is time for a new look
i have never changed the look of this thing. i figured that it was time for a new title and look. also, i believe a new direction. i am not positive on this, but i think that i may move towards the topcis of the journey that we are all on. the highs, the lows, the struggles, the victories.
a bit more reflective, but also maybe still a bit random. i haven't thought this out completely so it may not work, but we shall see what happens.
i do know that the title reflects the ideas that i am trying to show. so stop by every once in a while and maybe something will touch you and bring ideas to you as to ways to walk through the journey together.
a bit more reflective, but also maybe still a bit random. i haven't thought this out completely so it may not work, but we shall see what happens.
i do know that the title reflects the ideas that i am trying to show. so stop by every once in a while and maybe something will touch you and bring ideas to you as to ways to walk through the journey together.
1.12.2010
A New Year
sort of forgot about this thing over the holidays, but now that is over and the new year is here, i thought that i would reflect a bit. at the last new year's i knew that 2009 would be a challenge. i was in germany and knew that in june i would be leaving a place that i had lived for three years. i would be stepping back into the world of a beat up economy and joblessness. i didn't know if something would come quick or if it would be a long painful process. i didn't know how transition would be moving back from a foreign country to the one of my birth. well how has it been? in two words...
it sucks.
germany ended up grandly with me enjoying it more than i had. then i came back to the states. it seemed that everything has crashed and burned since. it is january now and all i have managed is to scrape together a 15 hour a week part time job. i have been on many interviews and application processes and it has led to a big naught.
the transition back has been what i expected it to be, but without a very important part. community. i expected that i would have after 7 months developed a starting group of friends but there is a big nothing through. transition really sucks without walking through it with others.
i feel like i have been utterly abandoned. for all the times of my life this seems like it has been the worst. there are very few bright spots and life is hard and vastly unrewarding. i can't believe that i have been asked to do this alone. that is not the way it was meant to be.
i know that most of my 1.5 readership does not want to read this, but i am sick of being fake to people who expect me to give the fake answers. sometimes i just need to be real in my answers. so move on and know that this will not be a continuing aspect of this site.
i do need to be grateful for some things. i do have a roof over my head, my family still loves and cares for me. i still have my health. but that doesn't change my situation and the abandonment that i feel.
it sucks.
germany ended up grandly with me enjoying it more than i had. then i came back to the states. it seemed that everything has crashed and burned since. it is january now and all i have managed is to scrape together a 15 hour a week part time job. i have been on many interviews and application processes and it has led to a big naught.
the transition back has been what i expected it to be, but without a very important part. community. i expected that i would have after 7 months developed a starting group of friends but there is a big nothing through. transition really sucks without walking through it with others.
i feel like i have been utterly abandoned. for all the times of my life this seems like it has been the worst. there are very few bright spots and life is hard and vastly unrewarding. i can't believe that i have been asked to do this alone. that is not the way it was meant to be.
i know that most of my 1.5 readership does not want to read this, but i am sick of being fake to people who expect me to give the fake answers. sometimes i just need to be real in my answers. so move on and know that this will not be a continuing aspect of this site.
i do need to be grateful for some things. i do have a roof over my head, my family still loves and cares for me. i still have my health. but that doesn't change my situation and the abandonment that i feel.
12.18.2009
Eclecticism
Recently I was sure what kind of musical mood I was in, so I went through my iPod and picked out songs that I felt like listening to. Out came an interesting list. Here it is...
Mika - Relax, Take it Easy
Moby - Natural Blues
Muse - Map of the Problematique
Radiohead - All I Need
Regina Spektor - My Dear Acquaintance
Robert Randolph & the Family Band - I Need More Love
The Script - Before the Worst
Tears for Fears - Shout
Thievery Corporation - Lebanese Blonde
Weezer - Hash Pipe
Wilco - Heavy Metal Drummer
Kenny Wayne Shepherd - Every Time it Rains
Jordan Sparks & Chris Brown - No Air
Jimi Hendrix - Purple Haze
Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
Interpol - Untitled
Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek
Fugees - Killing Me Softly with His Song
Dave Matthews Band - Grey Street
David Crowder Band - Church Music-Dance!
The Cure - Friday I'm in Love
The Cranberries - Ode to My Family
Beck - Go It Alone
The Beatles - Come Together
Andy Hunter - Lifelight
Anberlin - Paperthin Hymn
Aqualung - Brighter than Sunshine
Bob Marley - Is this Love?
Counting Crows - Raining in Baltimore
Mika - Relax, Take it Easy
Moby - Natural Blues
Muse - Map of the Problematique
Radiohead - All I Need
Regina Spektor - My Dear Acquaintance
Robert Randolph & the Family Band - I Need More Love
The Script - Before the Worst
Tears for Fears - Shout
Thievery Corporation - Lebanese Blonde
Weezer - Hash Pipe
Wilco - Heavy Metal Drummer
Kenny Wayne Shepherd - Every Time it Rains
Jordan Sparks & Chris Brown - No Air
Jimi Hendrix - Purple Haze
Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
Interpol - Untitled
Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek
Fugees - Killing Me Softly with His Song
Dave Matthews Band - Grey Street
David Crowder Band - Church Music-Dance!
The Cure - Friday I'm in Love
The Cranberries - Ode to My Family
Beck - Go It Alone
The Beatles - Come Together
Andy Hunter - Lifelight
Anberlin - Paperthin Hymn
Aqualung - Brighter than Sunshine
Bob Marley - Is this Love?
Counting Crows - Raining in Baltimore
12.10.2009
Cappuccinos and lattes brew
The social chatter is filling the air
The sounds of the soulful blues
lightens the room as a lamp illumines a canvas
There is comfort in a person's voice
The glimmer in an eye can lay at peace a damaged soul
The grace of a love that is passed on
A human is not meant to be alone
The company of others is necessary for fullness
That relationary piece of the heart
is a glimpse of a grander faith
A higher one that offers closeness bound by none.
The social chatter is filling the air
The sounds of the soulful blues
lightens the room as a lamp illumines a canvas
There is comfort in a person's voice
The glimmer in an eye can lay at peace a damaged soul
The grace of a love that is passed on
A human is not meant to be alone
The company of others is necessary for fullness
That relationary piece of the heart
is a glimpse of a grander faith
A higher one that offers closeness bound by none.
11.29.2009
What's Your Story?
Everyone lives a story. Our lives are made up of little events. Some of them are life-changing, some day-changing and some are just boring. I was thinking about what kind of story I was living. Would people want to watch it, would people want to read it? I am sure that pieces are interesting, but I don't know that it would be a page-turner.
Should it be? I don't know. Should it matter? yes. Should it make a difference? Yes.
So...what's your story?
Should it be? I don't know. Should it matter? yes. Should it make a difference? Yes.
So...what's your story?
11.19.2009
11.14.2009
Pleasantness
I have come across some very nice people today. Interesting on a day that I haven't felt especially nice. Probably good that way. The lady at the post office was exceptionally patient and kind to me. I was unsure of what I was doing and had many questions. We actually ended up having a very nice conversation. I was very grateful for her kind smile even though as she admitted to me, she had a long day.
A couple other people I ran across were kind. A glimpse of light in a sometimes cold and slightly mean world.
A couple other people I ran across were kind. A glimpse of light in a sometimes cold and slightly mean world.
11.09.2009
Encounter
Something interesting happened to me this evening. Yes, besides the fact that David Crowder used the word cacophony. But that sets the stage. I was at a David Crowder show and it had recently started. Only a few songs in. I was having fun singing along. A little dance music had played and then he went into the song 'How He Loves'.
I was enjoying singing along as the song progressed but started to recognize that I was reaching a place of being unable to sing. I had become completely choked up and was not able to proceed lyrically. Now I brought up the former point of just having fun to set my mood. I was not somber or thoughtful or even particularly worshipful at the moment. Just having fun. God however had different plans.
The last few months have been a bit of a rough stretch for me. A hard path of life with few bright spots. It has been hard. I acknowledge that. At the same time, I have tried to look on the few bright spots to keep my head above water. Sometimes I have better luck at this than others, but it is life with its ups and downs.
Which brings me back to tonight. Even though I was in know way in the place of worship. God decided that he needed to communicate something to me in a very clear and direct way. Back to my ceasation of song. I am choking up no longer able to sing and these words are just staring me in the face. HE LOVES. It is almost as if the whole world faded away and all I could see were these simple words 'He Loves'.
God didn't let me move on. He made me stop and process this. He was going to make sure that I knew He loved me. It took a while to recover for this encounter. I am still a bit stunned my it. The rest of the night was just as enjoyable and I am so glad that I went.
None of this changes where I am. It doesn't change my situation. I will wake up tomorrow with the same problems of life and struggles that I am currently encountering. That is there and will be there for the foreseeable future,
...BUT...
...it does change me.
I was enjoying singing along as the song progressed but started to recognize that I was reaching a place of being unable to sing. I had become completely choked up and was not able to proceed lyrically. Now I brought up the former point of just having fun to set my mood. I was not somber or thoughtful or even particularly worshipful at the moment. Just having fun. God however had different plans.
The last few months have been a bit of a rough stretch for me. A hard path of life with few bright spots. It has been hard. I acknowledge that. At the same time, I have tried to look on the few bright spots to keep my head above water. Sometimes I have better luck at this than others, but it is life with its ups and downs.
Which brings me back to tonight. Even though I was in know way in the place of worship. God decided that he needed to communicate something to me in a very clear and direct way. Back to my ceasation of song. I am choking up no longer able to sing and these words are just staring me in the face. HE LOVES. It is almost as if the whole world faded away and all I could see were these simple words 'He Loves'.
God didn't let me move on. He made me stop and process this. He was going to make sure that I knew He loved me. It took a while to recover for this encounter. I am still a bit stunned my it. The rest of the night was just as enjoyable and I am so glad that I went.
None of this changes where I am. It doesn't change my situation. I will wake up tomorrow with the same problems of life and struggles that I am currently encountering. That is there and will be there for the foreseeable future,
...BUT...
...it does change me.
11.06.2009
Why I believe there was no winner of the 2009 MLB season
I know that the World Series ended yesterday. In fact I saw the last out. But there is no longer actual competition in Major League Baseball. Without competition, there is then no winner. They say there is, but it's not true. The Yankees shouldn't even be allowed to play in the MLB.
Why do I say these things? The payrolls of each team. Baseball does not have a salary cap. That means that the teams can spend as much or as little as they want or have on their teams. Well, the "winners" this year spent over $200 million this season on their 'team' Their opponents, the Phillies spent $113 million on theirs. That is a gap of about $70 million. That amount is more than 10 teams payrolls. This is absurd. The lowest team's payroll Marlins, is $37 million. The next closest team to the Yankees is the Mets at $150 million. That is still $50 million lower than the Yankees 'team'.
If ever there was a team built on money and not baseball, it is the Yankees. Players go there to get money. They don't go there because they care about baseball. With so much money being the difference between teams payrolls. The talent disparity is ridiculous. When the Yankees play the Marlins, that is essentially a Division 1 college football team playing a Division 3 team. No competition.
Something needs to be done about this. I may stop watching baseball if this continues. There is no sport anymore, just Goliath against everyone else. It's a wonder the Phillies won two games against the machine of absurdity.
Why do I say these things? The payrolls of each team. Baseball does not have a salary cap. That means that the teams can spend as much or as little as they want or have on their teams. Well, the "winners" this year spent over $200 million this season on their 'team' Their opponents, the Phillies spent $113 million on theirs. That is a gap of about $70 million. That amount is more than 10 teams payrolls. This is absurd. The lowest team's payroll Marlins, is $37 million. The next closest team to the Yankees is the Mets at $150 million. That is still $50 million lower than the Yankees 'team'.
If ever there was a team built on money and not baseball, it is the Yankees. Players go there to get money. They don't go there because they care about baseball. With so much money being the difference between teams payrolls. The talent disparity is ridiculous. When the Yankees play the Marlins, that is essentially a Division 1 college football team playing a Division 3 team. No competition.
Something needs to be done about this. I may stop watching baseball if this continues. There is no sport anymore, just Goliath against everyone else. It's a wonder the Phillies won two games against the machine of absurdity.
10.27.2009
Sports
I don't usually talk about sports, but I have a though so I think I will share. I watched a good bit of the Yankees/Angels championship series and the home plate umpiring was awful. Strikes for the Yankees were balls for the Angels and it just was not very fair.
So I though why not take the subjectivity out of it. Make is laser and automatic. Rather than the umpire determining the balls and strikes, have a computer accurately tell where the ball is. Sports broadcasts right now have computer programs that tell us whether the ball was or was not a strike. Still use the humans for judgment calls, but these basic black and white calls can be made electronically.
Maybe that will help. Then maybe we can move to the speed cameras that Germany uses rather than police pulling people over.
So I though why not take the subjectivity out of it. Make is laser and automatic. Rather than the umpire determining the balls and strikes, have a computer accurately tell where the ball is. Sports broadcasts right now have computer programs that tell us whether the ball was or was not a strike. Still use the humans for judgment calls, but these basic black and white calls can be made electronically.
Maybe that will help. Then maybe we can move to the speed cameras that Germany uses rather than police pulling people over.
10.19.2009
Community
I returned to the scene of many hijinx yesterday. The place known as Messiah College. You see, ten years ago I graduated from there. The campus looks a lot the same but besides that, much has changed. But still it was neat to be back and have so many memories return.
For many years after college, I had always known that I greatly enjoyed college and would have loved to go back, but realized that it wouldn't be the same. I slowly began to realize that what I was missing was the profound sense of community that I had there. I had very deep community as is easy when you live on a college campus with so many people.
Well, I have experienced this since. It was when I went to Germany. Another incredible time where I felt so much community and support through community. My heart longs for community. My soul thrives on community. I think that in some way all of us have this desire. So when and where will community come next. I don't know, but I look forward to it whenever it happens and I look forward to putting effort into it happening again.
For many years after college, I had always known that I greatly enjoyed college and would have loved to go back, but realized that it wouldn't be the same. I slowly began to realize that what I was missing was the profound sense of community that I had there. I had very deep community as is easy when you live on a college campus with so many people.
Well, I have experienced this since. It was when I went to Germany. Another incredible time where I felt so much community and support through community. My heart longs for community. My soul thrives on community. I think that in some way all of us have this desire. So when and where will community come next. I don't know, but I look forward to it whenever it happens and I look forward to putting effort into it happening again.
10.13.2009
Germany
It has been a rough couple of days. I woke up on Friday missing Germany and the people. Usually it hits at moments throughout the day, but to wake up with it on my mind meant that it didn't leave all day.
I had such a community there. One that doesn't exist now. I loved, I was loved. I laughed, I traveled and I lived. Life doesn't stop but it feels like it is going about as slowly as it can right now. It is even hard to contact those people that I miss because I feel like I will miss them more.
There are bright spots and darker spots. This is just a bit darker of a time. But I did get to have fun in a corn maze today. That was cool. Have a good week and if you don't mind. Send up a little prayer for me.
I had such a community there. One that doesn't exist now. I loved, I was loved. I laughed, I traveled and I lived. Life doesn't stop but it feels like it is going about as slowly as it can right now. It is even hard to contact those people that I miss because I feel like I will miss them more.
There are bright spots and darker spots. This is just a bit darker of a time. But I did get to have fun in a corn maze today. That was cool. Have a good week and if you don't mind. Send up a little prayer for me.
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