Processing

It seems that many times I can deal with stuff better if I write it out. It is just a different medium for me and although I am not great at it, I do speak English so I can write it. Many times this comes out in this blog. Although not as much recently as used to.

Anyway, yesterday the 3 month old girl of two friends of mine that I work with here in Germany passed away. She had a heart condition since birth, yet this was not the most expected thing. I can't even imagine the pain that the parents are going through. I have had another couple that were friends lose their baby in the first year.

Death is such a funny thing. There is fear in some ways. There is joy in some ways. But there is always pain. Great pain that can't totally be understood except by the people that are going through it.

Mourning. Grieving. Crying. Weeping.

So how is the response supposed to go of someone close to them but not part of the loss. There is nothing that can be said. No words are appropriate for this. They never are. There is something that is deeper that I wish could be expressed. I haven't found anyway words recently. Just a hug and being there. That's all that I can figure.

In the end, I don't know.

Life Changes

Welp, here I am. This blog has definitely been lacking over the past while. It is funny how busyness and Facebook affect these things. Oh well. I am not quitting on it and thought that I would give a real update.

After the time coming up right before break and going to Romania, this week I have actually had a chance to chill for a bit and catch up on things like lots of emails and other stuff. I am also listening to Plans by Death Cab which seems like the perfect album for reflection.

A lot has happened over the past year which has involved a complete change of scenery and continent. I never thought that I would be in Europe and get to experience some fantastic things. Neither did I expect that the position that I would hold over here would be as challenging as it it. This has caused a lot of self reflection and with that comes change. Change of myself. I knew that it would happen before I came but that doesn't make it easier. These are life changing moments and I have the privilege of being able to recognize that I am in the middle of them. Life changes never stop happening, but sometimes we are resistant.

I wonder what the next ones will be for me.

Squirrels attack

Hilarious music video.

Romania

Man, this is already quite the week experiencing Romania. I feel so greedy and selfish as an American when I see things like this. I am definitely right in the middle of processing. Don't know what is the appropriate response.