Encounter

Something interesting happened to me this evening. Yes, besides the fact that David Crowder used the word cacophony. But that sets the stage. I was at a David Crowder show and it had recently started. Only a few songs in. I was having fun singing along. A little dance music had played and then he went into the song 'How He Loves'.

I was enjoying singing along as the song progressed but started to recognize that I was reaching a place of being unable to sing. I had become completely choked up and was not able to proceed lyrically. Now I brought up the former point of just having fun to set my mood. I was not somber or thoughtful or even particularly worshipful at the moment. Just having fun. God however had different plans.

The last few months have been a bit of a rough stretch for me. A hard path of life with few bright spots. It has been hard. I acknowledge that. At the same time, I have tried to look on the few bright spots to keep my head above water. Sometimes I have better luck at this than others, but it is life with its ups and downs.

Which brings me back to tonight. Even though I was in know way in the place of worship. God decided that he needed to communicate something to me in a very clear and direct way. Back to my ceasation of song. I am choking up no longer able to sing and these words are just staring me in the face. HE LOVES. It is almost as if the whole world faded away and all I could see were these simple words 'He Loves'.

God didn't let me move on. He made me stop and process this. He was going to make sure that I knew He loved me. It took a while to recover for this encounter. I am still a bit stunned my it. The rest of the night was just as enjoyable and I am so glad that I went.

None of this changes where I am. It doesn't change my situation. I will wake up tomorrow with the same problems of life and struggles that I am currently encountering. That is there and will be there for the foreseeable future,

...BUT...

...it does change me.