11.29.2009

What's Your Story?

Everyone lives a story. Our lives are made up of little events. Some of them are life-changing, some day-changing and some are just boring. I was thinking about what kind of story I was living. Would people want to watch it, would people want to read it? I am sure that pieces are interesting, but I don't know that it would be a page-turner.

Should it be? I don't know. Should it matter? yes. Should it make a difference? Yes.

So...what's your story?

11.19.2009

Dear God,

Life is hard...

I am confused...

I need...

11.14.2009

Pleasantness

I have come across some very nice people today. Interesting on a day that I haven't felt especially nice. Probably good that way. The lady at the post office was exceptionally patient and kind to me. I was unsure of what I was doing and had many questions. We actually ended up having a very nice conversation. I was very grateful for her kind smile even though as she admitted to me, she had a long day.

A couple other people I ran across were kind. A glimpse of light in a sometimes cold and slightly mean world.

11.09.2009

Encounter

Something interesting happened to me this evening. Yes, besides the fact that David Crowder used the word cacophony. But that sets the stage. I was at a David Crowder show and it had recently started. Only a few songs in. I was having fun singing along. A little dance music had played and then he went into the song 'How He Loves'.

I was enjoying singing along as the song progressed but started to recognize that I was reaching a place of being unable to sing. I had become completely choked up and was not able to proceed lyrically. Now I brought up the former point of just having fun to set my mood. I was not somber or thoughtful or even particularly worshipful at the moment. Just having fun. God however had different plans.

The last few months have been a bit of a rough stretch for me. A hard path of life with few bright spots. It has been hard. I acknowledge that. At the same time, I have tried to look on the few bright spots to keep my head above water. Sometimes I have better luck at this than others, but it is life with its ups and downs.

Which brings me back to tonight. Even though I was in know way in the place of worship. God decided that he needed to communicate something to me in a very clear and direct way. Back to my ceasation of song. I am choking up no longer able to sing and these words are just staring me in the face. HE LOVES. It is almost as if the whole world faded away and all I could see were these simple words 'He Loves'.

God didn't let me move on. He made me stop and process this. He was going to make sure that I knew He loved me. It took a while to recover for this encounter. I am still a bit stunned my it. The rest of the night was just as enjoyable and I am so glad that I went.

None of this changes where I am. It doesn't change my situation. I will wake up tomorrow with the same problems of life and struggles that I am currently encountering. That is there and will be there for the foreseeable future,

...BUT...

...it does change me.

11.06.2009

Why I believe there was no winner of the 2009 MLB season

I know that the World Series ended yesterday. In fact I saw the last out. But there is no longer actual competition in Major League Baseball. Without competition, there is then no winner. They say there is, but it's not true. The Yankees shouldn't even be allowed to play in the MLB.

Why do I say these things? The payrolls of each team. Baseball does not have a salary cap. That means that the teams can spend as much or as little as they want or have on their teams. Well, the "winners" this year spent over $200 million this season on their 'team' Their opponents, the Phillies spent $113 million on theirs. That is a gap of about $70 million. That amount is more than 10 teams payrolls. This is absurd. The lowest team's payroll Marlins, is $37 million. The next closest team to the Yankees is the Mets at $150 million. That is still $50 million lower than the Yankees 'team'.

If ever there was a team built on money and not baseball, it is the Yankees. Players go there to get money. They don't go there because they care about baseball. With so much money being the difference between teams payrolls. The talent disparity is ridiculous. When the Yankees play the Marlins, that is essentially a Division 1 college football team playing a Division 3 team. No competition.

Something needs to be done about this. I may stop watching baseball if this continues. There is no sport anymore, just Goliath against everyone else. It's a wonder the Phillies won two games against the machine of absurdity.